Air : Water : Earth : Fire : Spirit
Mind : Emotion : Body : Energy : Soul
The elements of life. The elements of Nature, the Universe. The elements that makes us into complete human beings. It’s natural to pay attention to all four elements to live a fulfilled balanced life. However, we all have stories, experience and tendencies that cause imbalances in our lives. For modern women, the Mind is usually overused. After years of study and working hard, we are so used to making rational decisions, working in an environment like business, or science that we drifted away from who we are as well. Our passions, our body, our heart, our Soul.
To be able to live a balanced life and to find your way back to yourself it’s so important to have all four elements represented and to connect to all of them in yourself.
- Fire – your creativity, passion, sensuality, the drivers that give you energy
- Water – your emotions, that flow through you connected to the moon cycle and your own bodily cycles
- Earth – your body, it’s signals, health issues & dis-eases, self-care, and also your connection to the collective body, Mother Earth where we all come from
- Mind – your thoughts, your intuition, insights, the rational thinking of the ego that made it possible to be where you are now, but also it’s limiting beliefs and blocking fears that keep you from leaping into the unknown.
- Spirit – Universal consciousness, the Source, Soul, Higher Self, God, or anything else Divine at the basis of our creation, the reason why, the purpose of our existence.
I’m gonna be honest with you.
We are all on a journey through life and we all have our obstacles and traumas. Last year I went through severe mental and physical burnout after a career in healthcare, science and business and a couple of difficult life events. My body and mind broke down because I was in survival mode for a long time. I had to have emergency surgery unexpectedly and I didn’t come out well. I was having arrhythmia attacks, I could barely breathe and I was so tired that I couldn’t sit up straight for more than 10 minutes. I wasn’t able to navigate my emotions anymore, I felt exhausted, I was having chest pains, muscle pains and I didn’t know what was happening to me. Although being a doctor, I didn’t have a clue what my body was signaling to me: “You have to stop. You are not aligned. This is not you. STOP.”
I thought I was broken and that I’d never recover. I was diagnosed with severe burnout. My body showed me that my life wasn’t sustainable anymore and that I had to make a change.
WHAT? Me? Burnout? I could go through anything! I didn’t come this far to get burnout. I couldn’t accept it at all.
However, it dawned on me that there was something very wrong. Years of study in the harsh patriarchal world of medicine and science and working in an environment of men and women who were suffering from the wounds of patriarchy and acting out to protect themselves from their own deep-felt fear left me powerless and motionless. I was constantly triggered by old pain and walked in the same old circles over and over again. I wasn’t enjoying my life anymore and I was in emotional and physical pain most of the time.
During my recovery I discovered that the things that made it possible to survive all the obstacles were my biggest strengths but they were also holding me back in my life. In the process of surviving my environment I became severely disconnected from my true Self and my body.
As my body is catching up, I am still learning to heal myself and to live in a balanced way. I will write about this process, in order to be able to give you the medicine that helped me back to myself.
In order to heal myself and to continuously grow and evolve, I tune in to my body, my heart and my soul every day, and use the whispers of my intuition as a compass. I now try to live my life in alignment to what I discovered about my true calling. In order to do so I use yoga, meditation, intuitive techniques, astrological insights and rituals. I follow the cycles of the Moon, tune in to the seasons, to Nature’s rhythm because they are all great teachers and mirrors. I will share my experiences with you here on my blog. About my life, my loves. Occasionally, my hobbies, pleasures and things that grasp my interest somehow will also be part of my stories (knitting, gardening, coffee and chocolate, classical music, crystals, organic and gluten free cooking, tarot decks, journaling, I have this special space in my heart for Japanese history, scenery and art). I will share my thoughts, feelings and experiences. Just me, as I am, whole.
I will also write about health, and (mental) healthcare, because that is where life took me on my career path for the last 1,5 decades. I am rediscovering what I learned over the years and why.
I am longing to bring something to you that will help you come back to yourself. The world needs balance and healing, now more than ever.